This is the last Full Moon for 2012. It holds some strong energy that you can use for transformation and healing. A full moon phase tends to make those aspects of a person and their lives which are concealed or buried come to light in an emotionally intensive way. We all have memories which are very deeply embedded within the unconscious. Some of these need to be brought to the surface to be articulated and deciphered so that transformation and healing can be initiated.
The sign of Cancer in Astrology rules the 4th house which is the one relating to home and how we feel attached to it, where we come from in the sense of emotional security. It also links to mother energies as she links to the home and Cancer sign. It is very apt then that this is the Full Moon sign that falls just after Christmas and the festive season when people would have been back home or linked to their families, probably discussing childhood days and the old stories. It rules where you came from, your roots, home and sense of emotional security which is derived from experiencing that. The Sun at present is in the sign of Capricorn which rules the 10th house in Astrology. This is the part of the chart that looks at where you are in the outer world, your reputation, how the world sees you, where you make your mark. This might fit too at his time of year with conversations, memories and if not that , then thoughts that you would have had. Christmas and relinking with home stirs up memories deep within you and old feelings, rivalries and emotions that you might not be too comfortable with.
Giving children gifts, listening to christmas songs, the christmas smells, all take you back in time to your own childhood experiences of Christmas. The ghosts of your christmases past. You never know what will surface. Cancer is a very sensitive Moon and some of the memories that surface will be deep and may not have seen the light for a long time. How much do you remember of your childhood experiences of the festive season ? Can you recall what tales of your ancestors were told around the table? Were you told that the family does things this way or that way or that you are so like or unlike a certain family member? Is there a family trait that seems to continue through the generations? Can you recall what presents you got in the past? Did you like them? Were they what you wanted? Were your gifts received with delight ? What were your favourite hymns? What does Christmas and this season mean for you?
How are you at giving and receiving presents/words? Have you realised your dreams in the world? Does your inner world coincide in a comfortable way with your reputation or what you have attained in life? How are you at mothering/looking out for yourself? Have you cut the umbilical cord or are you still partly in the womb, taking two steps forward to create your life and three steps back? Do you go straight for a goal or take sideways crabby steps? How good are you at moving out of your comfort zone at work and at play?
People usually carry forward emotional bagggage like guilt, painful memories, family hardships and shortcomings, bitterness within the ancestral lineage without even realising that it has an effect on the way they live out their lives. These stories or tendencies become scripts that are stored within the unconscious which does not recognize time. Often these old energies or themes play out in our personal lives or with situations in the here and now. The old dramas play themselves out on a loop but with different characters playing roles because they triggered some facet of the dynamics from the old original scripts.
It will be really worthwhile if you take a short while to think on these things and write insights down on a piece of paper. You do not have to tell anyone although you can get someone else to help you or do it with you if you wish. Keep the list in a safe place. You could also make another lists of new scripts or behaviours that you would like to attract during the next year.Work out what serves you still and what does not enhance your life. I will write another post by the 30th to give you a little rite (which is very simple and will not take much time) that you can do to clear the old behaviour patterns/emotional reactive patterns and step forward with a fresh new script for 2013.
Enjoy the rest of your Christmas.